So…what’s been happenin?

Well, I’m sitting here in a quiet home by myself listening the scurrying of rats (okay, hamsters). My family is in New York right now, leaving me home because of my job. You know, when I started working as a CNA, I didn’t realize how much nursing controls one’s life!! Yikes! Some days I’m told I can’t leave until 9pm and other days I don’t know when I’m going to be home because I’m on a doctor’s trip with a resident! I am enjoying working as a CNA though. I have had many rewarding moments and many funny stories! Although, sometimes, I’m the only one laughing while others are turning green but hey, as an aide, sitting in unpleasant stuff is the norm!
Uhum…anyway…
Well, on a lighter note, Paul and I finally have our date set for our wedding!! I was so excited when we finally got that settled!! Its hard not knowing what’s ahead in the future! I mean, I know that life is uncertain anyway but it is nice knowing a direction in which to head!! Paul has found a car now and is making plans to move out and live with a friend from church. I half envy him but as I sit here at the computer listening to rats bang their wheels against the cage (I swear they do that to annoy me!), I realize that I like living with people! And Paul and my dad don’t really want me to live on my own so I am content to live at home and work and save up money for our future!
Well, that’s a little update on Paul and me. A lot has happened since December but I won’t bore anyone with details! God has been working in me quite a bit and teaching me many lessons. Hey, if I actually learn these lessons well, maybe I’ll be perfect by the time I’m married!!!

Our Engagement!!!

I got to tell the story of my engagement to a coworker yesterday as we were working. It was nice to recount it and relive it again. I don’t think that I shall easily forget that day. Even when I’m old and grey and senile I’ll still remember. And yes, this is going to be another “mushy” blog post so be forewarned oh you faint of heart!!
The day started out like any other at Weatherwood in Area 4–rushed. I don’t remember exactly why it was rushed but I do remember something about having a hard set of rooms and several showers on top of it. My sister and I were supposed to go to the Thompson’s house that night for supper and so that helped keep my spirits raised high. At about 2 or 2:30, the LPN who was the Nursing Supervisor for that day approached me and asked if I had been working at Weatherwood for over 30 days. “Yes Why? Are you mandating?” was my skeptical response. She just had the look of “mandation” written all over her face. (for those who may not know, “mandation” is when you are not asked but told that you have to work overtime.) She said yes and that it may only be for less than an hour. I only had to stay until one of the 3-11 aides showed up. I didn’t think that was too bad to be mandated less than an hour because then I wouldn’t be mandated for another 48 hours.
At about ten to three, I went to the break room to call Paul and let him know that I’d be a little late and to also let my mom know that I wasn’t going to be home right away. As I was walking to the break room, I was looking out the windows as I always do and I noticed a guy sitting on a bench outside the front of the building. “Mmm…That looks like Paul” I thought to myself. I looked again. “Boy, that really looks like Paul” The man on the bench was sitting kind of like Paul. I hurried to the break room with my heart racing and looked out the window, which was right behind the man. “That REALLY looks like Paul” I thought to myself again. I called Paul on the cell and the man on the bench picked up his cell phone at the same time that Paul did!!! It was my boyfriend that was sitting mysteriously outside of my work place without telling me that he was waiting for me! I tried to control the excitement in my voice as I talked with Paul but it didn’t work because, as Paul later told me, I sounded awfully cheerful for someone who was being made to stay and work extra after an already crazy day.
I got off with Paul, not telling him that I had seen him sitting outside, and then called my parents. Boy, did they act strange on the phone! My curiosity at that point would have killed hundreds of cats! I was ready to burst!! I had to compose myself and go back to my area before the bell rang and all the blessed workers got to leave and go home. My mind was racing! “What is he doing there? Why didn’t he tell me? MAYBE HE’S HERE TO ASK ME TO MARRY HIM!! No, no, don’t get your hopes up like that. He’s probably just here to take you and Lydia up to his house, you know, like a pleasant surprise and more time together. You don’t want to look disappointed if that’s what he’s here for.” I tried to concentrate on getting report because I needed to know what the 3-11 nurse wanted me to do until the other aide came.
After the longest 10 minutes of my life, the aide finally arrived. “Sarah, your relief is here,” I was told. I rushed getting my stuff together but I was slowed down by having to fill out an overtime slip, get it signed, and then staple it to my time sheet downstairs. I could have cared a less but it had to be done. My hands were trembling as I wrote out the slip and time sheet. Finally!! I could leave!
I tried not to peek around the hedges as I walked down the walkway but I couldn’t help myself! There was Paul, sitting on a bench waiting for me. “What are you doing here,” I asked him. “Well, I thought that it would save gas money if we rode up together,” he said. (“cool,” I thought) “And I wanted to ask if you would marry me,” and he pulled out the ring. I was shocked!! I backed away with both hands over my mouth. Yes, I had hoped that he was here to ask me to marry him but I didn’t expect it at all! He got down on his knee and said “Sarah Eroh, will you marry me?” I could barely nod my head up and down. He got up and asked “Is that a yes?” I nodded again and whispered yes. “Can I have your hand?” Now here was another problem-my hand would not respond to my brain’s urging to give Paul my hand. Paul had to physically take my hand because I still too surprised to give it to him myself! I can still feel the coolness of the metal on my finger as my fiance took my hand and slipped the ring onto my finger.
Saturday, September 29th 2007 was the happiest day of my life. I couldn’t believe that I was engaged. I looked at my ring many times that night and I told anyone that I could at work the next day. Paul and I announced our engagement at church that Sunday evening and the whole church rejoiced with us.
We still don’t have an exact date but we are looking at Summer of 2009, after Paul graduates from college. A year and a half seems like eternity right now but Paul and I are looking forward to what God has in store for us. He has deemed it best for us to wait and he will provide the patience for the wait and he will teach us the lessons that he has for us to learn. We would greatly appreciate your prayers for us as we begin the preparation for our future and begin saving and planning for our wedding.
“The lines have fallen for me in pleasant places; indeed I have a beautiful inheritance.” Ps.16:6

Update

Well, I’ve been accused of being too mushy in my blog posts. So, I’ll just write about some general things that have happened since my last post and save the “mushy” posts for another time!!!
The first thing is that I AM DONE WITH MY SEMESTER!!! That means I have no studying, no papers to write, or any school obligations after I get home from work!! I can relax, read, cross stitch or crochet, or whatever other leisure I may have, after my home responsibilities that is. I still need to register for my next semester though. I am definately going to take Elementary Spanish 102 and I think I am going to take a WWII history course as well. I may try to tack on a third class, CPR. I really would like to take a CPR course and Luzerne offers one at the Hazleton Campus and it isn’t filled up yet so we’ll see how that goes. The course is only a month long and is a one credit course so it will only be extra hectic for one month. Something I’m still thinking over!!
I also applied for a new job. I would still work as a CNA but it would be in a more home-like atmosphere. I’m hoping I’ll hear something soon but with the holidays I’m not sure that I will. I really want to work more one on one with people and build relationships that will stick with me. At work I have a few residents that I like but I’m not able to be around them too much because I float the entire building and the facility is a 200 bed facility. So, I am all over the place trying to remember all the residents and how they like things done that I cannot build any relationships. I know that someone has to do the kind of work that I do but I still desire something better. We’ll see. God knows.
Well, I’ll close with something that really struck me hard last night and this morning as I flipped through the book of Ecclesiastes. I have been struggling a little bit with the sovereignty of God and all the ups and downs that I have had. Well, last night I came across this verse in Ecclesiastes 3:14, “I percieved that whatever God does endures forever; nothing can be added to it, nor anything taken from it. God has done it, so that people fear before him.”
I still don’t understand why God is putting some of these trials on me and what he is doing but he has a purpose and his will and purpose will last forever. I need to rest and trust in his sovereignty and wisdom. Maybe that is why these trials are here… to show me how to rest and trust in our great and awesome God.

My Side of the Saga

Well, I’ve been asked when I was going to write my side in the saga of Paul and Sarah so I figured that while I had the time and the computer on I would write it. So, here it is…

I was sixteen when I first met Paul. That’s when he and his family began coming to our church. I don’t remember much about Paul during the first couple monthes but his sisters, Becky and Sarah, and I struck up a friendship. I still remember seeing Becky and Sarah sitting in the back of the church with their mom, looking kinda of lonely (at least from my perspective) and I remembered what it was like being new in a church. I have a tendency to be very shy, so its a wonder that I summoned enouch courage to walk over and say “Hello” and introduce myself to them. I was glad that I did though because I found two very good friends in them.
They began coming to the church just on Sunday nights because Mr. Thompson was still preaching at another church. Eventually they began coming more and more to our church and my family ended up having them over at our house along with another family. I think that that is the first I noticed Paul. I mean I had seen him but never interacted with him at all. I was more interested in Becky and Sarah than Paul! Anyway, this Sunday afternoon was the first time that we interacted and joked around. All the “older” aged kids were seated at our kitchen table were we enjoyed a really roudy time of fun! Oh well, we were teens and teens are roudy at times!!
After this, we ended up being more and more together as our families got to know each other better and get together more often. Paul and I started talking more in our “group” which mainly consisted of Becky, Sarah, Paul, Ben, Jonathan, Caleb, and me and Aaron Ashworth, another friend, would pop in and out as he pleased. I began to notice Paul more. One of the first things I noticed was the way he handled his little sisters and how much they adored him. He was the first guy that took notice of small children and knew how to handle them. Paul was also the first guy that I could easily talk to and joke with. He was also the first guy that I would have considered a friend instead of a mere aquantence. We ended up talking more and more and I was glad for any excuse to talk with him. I was beginning to think that maybe, just maybe, Paul would be a possibility for a more long-term relationship.
Things started picking up over the summer of 06 and my parents were beginning to see that something was going on. Actually, everyone in the church, besides Paul and I, knew that something was going on!! It wasn’t until my graduation in September 06 that it became more apparent, especially when Paul was the only guy sitting at the table where several of my friends and I were sitting. The rest of the guys were sitting at another table but Paul seemed perfectly content to stay at my table and only left when he was called over by the guys. After that, my friend Amanda began to tease me a little but I brushed her off and instead teased her terribly about her boyfriend! My other friend, Mary, was the first person I told about my crush on Paul. I was trembling as I told her my deepest secret!! This was my first really serious cruch and I was intrusting her with this secret!! She suspected something though because of Paul’s behavior at my graduation. Looking back, I do see tha Paul was a little obvious!!
I don’t think Amanda found out until my 18th birthday party in November. THAT was obvious, very obvious. Paul arrived before his parents and hung around me wherever I was and I tried to hang around him as much as possible without being too obvious (I failed in not being obvious). We talked in the living room for a several minutes while my friends in the kitchen giggled at us. Well, after that, Amanda realized something was really going on. She began to say “I think Paul likes you” “I see the way he looks at you” etcetera. I would respond by “I don’t know. I’m not sure that he does.” I definately liked him though!! At one point, Amanda and her sister said that if Paul didn’t say anything soon they were going to talk to him and see what was going on!
Life went on as usual until a fateful Saturday night in March, 07. It was the weekend of our church’s mission conference and that Saturday night there was a mission’s fair in which the various ministries that our church had or supported displayed their work. One family had a bunch of creepy crawly things like snakes and spiders that they were displaying and using to show God’s handy work in creating them. Well, in my mind, God could have just as well displayed his handywork in cuter, cuddly things besides snakes and spiders!!! Anyway…there were several people holding snakes and saying “oh they’re so cute” or “touch one, they feel nice” and I would respond by running away and saying “don’t touch me!!!” Well, my future lover decided to get my attention by suggesting to my brother that he put a snake on me. Well, Paul got my attention, although I almost passed out!! He was VERY apologetic, so much so that he suprised me! I remember saying something to the effect of “When I say I’m afraid of something, I’m afraid of it!” and then “You take care of the snakes and I’ll handle the blood!” That last statement was a give-a-way since I was hinting that I was thinking more long-term!!
Well, that night I found out that Paul was “smitten” with me. Mr. Thompson talked with my dad briefly that night and then my mom and dad talked with me until about 12 or 1 in the morning!! I didn’t sleep too well that night and then I had to pretend that I didn’t know a thing since Paul didn’t know that his dad had talked to my dad. Boy, was that an awkward Sunday!!
Well, a week later there was an activity at a couples house for the college and career group. Paul and I talked almost exclusivily to each other and were suprisingly very open with each other!! And we also…um, flirted as little bit, although I would never had admitted it!
For the next several weeks, things were quiet and I didn’t hear anything else in regards to Paul and I starting a relationship. Then one night my dad decided it was time for some action and this time he contacted Paul’s dad and they talked for a while. Finally, my dad came into my room and told me about the conversation and said that we would probably hear something Sunday. Sure enough, the next day, Saturday, Paul called to invite us to stay at the church with them Sunday afternoon.
Well, this Sunday was extremely ackward especially when Pastor Tripp mentioned the groom and his bride in the sermon. I looked straight on even though I heard a few giggles from Paul’s pew and I felt several eyes on me from my family. After the sermon Paul and my dad talked for a little while downstairs and then Paul rejoined our little group. Well, a little while later, the group all of a sudden got smaller. Jonathan and Caleb disapeared somewhere and then Ben stood up abrubtly, whispered something to Paul and then left. Becky mumbled something about helping with lunch and gathered up her stuff and left. Sarah went a short ways into the sactuary and sat down. So, it was just Paul and I. I was thinking “WHERE ARE YOU GOING!!! WHY ARE YOU LEAVING ME ALONE!!!!!!” We kept talking and then at a pause Paul said “I have your dad’s permission, do I have yours?” I quietly responded “yes.” And that was it. Our “courtship” was official!

Okay, so this is my version of the story, though long it may be. No, it may not be the most romantic with hearts flying all over the place but that’s okay, I like it the way it is. And the way Paul asked may not be the most sweeping, but I don’t mind; I like the way he asked. God worked this out the way he wanted and now Paul and I are engaged and happily anticipating our wedding. We would covet your prayers for us as we move forward.

“God works all things out for good for those who are called according to his purpose”

I’m…reengaged?

Well, I had quite a few interesting days this week. I had to work Thanksgiving and ended up being mandated (made to work) and I had to stay until 7 at night, making for a long 12 hour day. I almost had to stay the full eight hours which would have given me 40 hours of pay for one days work but I preferred to come home. Twelve hours is plenty for me!! Wednesday, though, was the best day for me. (Little background here, my engagement ring was sent away to get resized two weeks earlier and I hadn’t heard anything about it yet. Keep that in mind!)
I was feeling a little blue on Wednesday because Paul was not going to be coming to my house for Thanksgiving. Instead, he was going to spend it in NY with his family. I knew that it was the right choice but I didn’t want it!! I had a harder time keeping my spirits up once I got home from work. Since he wouldn’t be here for Thanksgiving, I wanted Paul to be able to come over to my house for supper that night. I wasn’t sure if my mom would go for that or not because my grandparents were coming up (or down) from NY and Thanksgiving was the next day. So, I didn’t say anything.
After Paul was done with work, around 4:30 he gave me a call and we talked for a few minutes but then he said that he was going to lose service and that he would call me back later. I waited and waited but there was still no phone call. I thought about calling him but I decided that I’d wait for him to call me. Around 6 there was still no phone call and my grandparents were arriving. I was really down now, not so much because of Paul not calling but because I felt I had missed my chance to see him before Sunday. A half hour later, I was talking with my grandmother in the kitchen when she said “Oh, there’s a familiar face!” I looked towards the doorway but didn’t see anyone. “Who could it be?” I thought, running down my mental list of people who might possibly show up unexpectedly. Then I had a wonderful, exciting thought come to mind, “PAUL!” I rushed to the doorway and there he was!! He pulled out my engagement ring and re-proposed to me right there in front of everyone. I think my face almost split in two because I was smiling so much! Paul was here, my ring was back, and I was now reexperiencing almost the same joy that I had had when we first got engaged. We had an awesome couple of hours together before he had to head out back home.
I think I floated back into the house, I’m not sure though! I do know this though, God has truly blessed me. Even when I was not placing my joy in God and was not trusting him, He still chose to bless me with a wonderful evening with Paul. He forgave me my bad attitudes and sin towards Him and then showered me with grace and love. He has blessed me by placing Paul in my life and allowing us to grow closer together to the point of engagement and in the near future, marriage.
“Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life and I will dwell in the house of the Lord forever.” Psalm 23:6

Wednesday alone

Well, I’m sitting here in the quiet of an empty house. My mom and siblings have gone to New York until Friday and my dad is at work. I don’t mind it too much but it would be nicer if the weather was a little cheerier. It’s cloudy, foggy, rainy, and just plain dreary. I’m ready to turn on several lights, get some candles lit, and blast some music. I’m listening to some Steve Camp on you tube but it’s still too quiet. It won’t be as bad tomorrow because I’ll be at work all day and so I won’t have to deal with the stillness! I’m not minding keeping house though. I think I could get used to it quite easily. Of course it helps that my mom made a bunch of meals and froze them so that all I need to do is heat them up and throw together a side dish. Oh well, so I’m not roughing it totally but I’m getting a bit of a taste of how things are going to be once I’m married so I have to be given SOME credit, right?
I also got up with my dad this morning and yesterday morning to help him get his lunch together. My mom has done this for my dad for almost 21 years. She will get up with him and make him breakfast and pack a lunch for him. It doesn’t matter if he gets up at 1:30 am or 5:30 am, she is always up, with very few exceptions, to see him out the door. Many times she’ll go back to bed unless she has something pressing but she is always up. Some mornings I’ll wake up to them talking with each other in low voices. Although, lately I get up with my dad since we both work 7-3. Anyway, this is something I’d like to adopt once I’m married and I practiced on my dad the past two mornings. Not easy, seeing as my bed was so warm, and soft, and comfy…you get the idea. I was glad I did it though. I think Daddy appreciated it. He really misses my mom. Only two more nights and she’ll be back!
Well, tomorrow I go back to work after having two days off. I get a hard set of rooms and showers on top of that. I also may have to go on a trip to Allentown with one of the residents. He’s in his thirties and has some sort of mental issues that makes him more like a child, and a mischevious one at that! So, that’s an hour trip up and then an hour back, not including the doctor visit with a mischevious man…interesting combo!! I may not have to take it though because there is an aide who is on light duty that may be assigned to this trip so that we’re not working short for last rounds. We’ll see. I’m not too worried about it. It may be fun. It is kinda neat riding in a big van and seeing new places. And, I get paid for riding and sitting! Not too bad.
In two more days is my birthday. I’ll be 19. Funny how time flies. I never thought that I’d make it to 19. I also never thought that I’d be engaged at age 18 and waiting to get married in the near future. Things change so quickly. Last year I could only hope that Paul would ask me to court him and my friends and I were wondering what was taking him so long!!! My mom was even wondering what was taking a long time. We were sure after my graduation in September of 06 and/or my 18th birthday Paul was going to ask but he didn’t. I think that both Paul and I were a little obvious in our attraction to each other, so obvious that others knew that Paul and I like each other but we didn’t know that we like each other. But this is a story for another post…
Well, I should get off. I have a few things to get together before my dad gets home and I have to get some supper together (okay, okay, i have to make a salad and heat up some meatballs but that’s still cooking!!!). Write more later…

Sunday Evening Thoughts

It’s finally Sunday night. I’m sitting next to my fiancee and my friend, his sister, Becky while typing this entry. I’m also enjoying the antics of Paul’s youngest sister, Abi. She’s almost 2 and is mimicking almost every word that we say. I tried to get her to say a Spanish phrase but she looked at me as if I all of a sudden grew another head. Oh well, maybe another time.
I had to work this weekend again. Work went pretty good today although the morning was a little rushed. Tomorrow will be interesting because I’m going with a resident to the hospital as she gets cataract surgery done which will leave only four aides on the floor doing five showers and all of the am cares. I’m going to try and get to work ealier tomorrow so I can get a few am cares out of the way so that all that has to be done is to take the residents out of bed. We’ll see. Well, I think that I should go and stop being rude and actually have conversation with someone else besides myself and the computer.

First attempt

I’m typing out my first blog entry. I never thought that I’d actually have one but I think it’ll be fun, so long as I will keep up with it!! Since I’ve had grammer hammered into my head and I’ve been having essay style writing for the past several weeks I think that it is only right to begin this blog with an introduction. After all, all good writings have an intro, right?
Well, to begin with, I am taking two classes at Luzerne County Community College. One is English Compostion, which is going okay considering my writer’s block that I get many a times, and the other is Elementary Spanish. I am loving my Spanish class and am having a fun time with all the regular verbs and how by just changing one or two letters, the whole meaning of the word can be changed. More on that later. My English Comp is going pretty good as well. I think I still hold an A but I’m a little worried about a test that I’m having on Monday. The paper will be graded on a scale of 1-6, 1-3 score meaning failed and 4-6 meaning passed and will not have to retake the test. I would appreciate some prayer in regards to that.
I am also a Certified Nurses Assisstant at a nursing home in my hometown. I am hoping to go for my LPN but I don’t know how that will work out. In the meantime, I remain at the bottom of the totem pole but I am enjoying my work. I’m feeling a little stressed out because I only get one weekend off a month and I’m working 40 hours a week. Also, my work is not the easiest job in the world and I many a time leave feeling tired and ready to explode. I do enjoy my job though. One of the things that keep me going is having a resident look at me and give a smile or have their faces light up when they see me. It is also nice to hear a resident say “Sarah, I haven’t seen you in a while! Where have you been? I’ve missed you!” That just makes my day!! (It also is extra special when they remember my name!!!)
Another awesome thing that has happened in the recent past is that I am engaged!!!! Yes, it seems impossible but I really am engaged to a wonderful man who is also a student, but at Bloomsburg University. His name is Paul and he is 22 years old. We just celebrated his birthday on November 7th (Happy Birthday Paul!!!). He is studying computer science, more paticullarly, computer programming…I think. I don’t have the brain capacity for the kind of things he does but it’s still interesting to see the “guts” of the program, which to me are nothing but letters, numbers, and symbols but to him are a whole other language!
It’s awesome to see where God has led me and how he is writing my story. He is weaving a tapestry where everything that is going on in my life, Paul’s life, my sibling’s lives, my parent’s lives, etc. are coming together to form a marvelous piece of work. I look forward to when I see the finished piece and not just the strands and knots.
Well, that’s all for tonight. I need to go to bed so that I can get up tomorrow and actually spend time getting to know this awesome God more. I hope to write more! Good night!

“The steps of a man are established by the Lord, when he delights in his way;
Though he fall, he shall not be cast headlong, for the Lord upholds his hand.”
Psalm 37: 23-24