Even When it Hurts

I had a post in mind for this past Monday but God had a very different plan. Some of you know that we were expecting our 4th little one this coming March. Monday I went for my first appointment and discovered that God decided to take our sweet one to be with him. This has been a difficult week thus far.

 I keep thinking of Psalm 131 where the psalmist says, “O Lord , my heart is not lifted up; my eyes are not raised too high; I do not occupy myself with things too great and too marvelous for me.  But I have calmed and quieted my soul, like a weaned child with its mother; like a weaned child is my soul within me.” I read this as I waited for the final ultrasound and it keeps running through my head. I can’t say I am calmed and quieted all the time but I am trying to rest in his plan. I have much more peace than I thought I would but I know that rough patches are ahead. I am thankful for the prayers and love that has already been shown.

Pray for the patience that is needed. Pray that in my private times the truth in my head speaks to my heart and if there are things to be learned that I will learn them. Pray for continued peace. Life continues on and I have three other precious ones who need me. For that I am thankful.

Even when it hurts, even when I doubt, God is still good and in control. And I have lots to praise God for.