Recently, we’ve had some financial setbacks. Mostly in the form of car repairs. It has been so frustrating as we have been striving to get out of debt and save money but keep being thwarted. Its been easy to look around and think, “Why do others seem to have things fall into their laps while we keep being purposeful and we are making slow progress…if we are even moving at all.” I’ve ranged from “beans and rice every night!! Or maybe 4 times a paycheck…but beans and rice!” to “I don’t care. I’m going to get those organizational baskets. I’m tired of waiting.” Yeah…not thoughts I’m proud of.
Well, yesterday, my husband’s car died, in the parking lot at work. We knew it was going to so it was a praise that it died as he pulled in and not anywhere else! So now we have another huge repair. Last night, Paul did the budget and showed it to me. As I looked it over I thought, “Wow, God is providing.” Then it hit me. It was as if God drew me close and whispered “I’m providing for you guys. Trust me.” I felt so humbled and worshipful at that moment. Yes, God is providing. Is he allowing our cars to stay fixed? Not exactly. Did he hand us a wad of cash? Nope. Although if he did that’d be great! But no. What I do have is this, the full amount I need to go grocery shopping. Money for gas. Money for Chinese takeout as I’m too wiped to go shopping tonight. He is providing. Last night, I felt as if I was on holy ground.
As I thought about God’s provision I kept having the phrase go through my head, “for in the day of the Lord, he will provide.” I couldn’t remember the exact passage though. I looked it up and I found it was in Genesis 22 when God told Abraham to sacrifice his only son Isaac. Verse 14 comes after God provided a ram for the sacrifice. “So Abraham called the name of that place, ‘The Lord will provide;’ as it is said to this day, ‘On the mount of the Lord it shall be provided.’
Wow. I can only imagine the gratitude and relief that Abraham and Isaac felt. God provided a substitute. They both had everything to lose and they trusted God to the very end on and on the mount of the Lord, a substitute was provided.
My circumstances are no where near as dramatic as this but I drew strength and courage to move forward. As we repair out second car, Jehovah Jireh-Yahweh will provide. As I teach my children and feel out of my element, Jehovah Jireh. As I discipline and feel like I’m not reaching my children with the gospel, Jehovah Jireh. As I stare at 3 of my 4 crying all about different things and I shake my head and wonder if I have the strength and grace for this, Jehovah Jireh! When my son snuggles me and says “Mommy, I can’t stop my anger. You can’t stop my anger. Only God can” and as I pray in tears with my child that God will help him, Jehovah Jireh.
God will take care of us. He works slowly. Oh so painfully slow sometimes! But praise him for his grace and mercy! Praise him for how he works!
Friend, I don’t know what God has you going through right now. Maybe its something big or maybe its something that isn’t catastrophic but feels too heavy to bear, trust in the God who provides. He hasn’t left you. He’s right there. He is waiting to give you his gift of grace, grace that says, “Stop striving. Rest in what I have done for you.”
2 Chronicles 20, the second part of vs 12 has become my theme verse for this year. Jehosaphat is facing a a great army coming against Israel to destroy it. He cries out to God, “O our God, will you not execute judgement on them? For we are powerless against this great horde that is coming against us. We do not know what to do, but our eyes are on you.” He didn’t know what God planned for them but he cried to God to rescue them. And God did! Jehovah Jireh.
Lord, we do not know what to do, but our eyes are on you! Thank you for being Jehovah Jireh!